LIFE part I

My grievance with contemporary society is with its decrepitude. There are few towering pleasures to allure me, almost no beauty to bewitch me, nothing erotic to arouse me, no intellectual circles or positions to challenge or provoke me, no burgeoning philosophies or theologies and no new art to catch my attention or engage my mind, no arousing political, social, or religious movements to stimulate or excite me. There are no free men to lead me. No saints to inspire me. No sinners sinful enough to either impress me or share my plight. No one human enough to validate the "going" lifestyle. It is hard to linger in that dull world without being dulled.

I stake the future on the few humble and hearty lovers who seek God passionately in the marvelous, messy world of redeemed and related realities that lie in front of our noses.

William McNamara (10)



In-satisfaction.
The desire to be fully human.
To be truly alive.
A thirst for that which we will be, when he appears and we become like him, seeing him as he truly is.

But the resistance comes.
The rains fall.
The floods come.
The rains do not fall.
The desert stretches across the horizon.
The valley darkens.
Our eyes fail.
And so-
We settle.
We conform.
We stop striving.
We stop dreaming and forget the dreams we have already dreamt.



Life is hard.

It is easier to relax in the embracing arms of the The Average. Easier, but not better. Easier, but not more significant. Easier, but not more fulfilling. (18)
(The council in this day and age is that we can arrive at our full humanness by gratifying our desires.)
Has something ever been further from the truth?
Someone once said, "Not my will but yours be done."


Vitezslav Gardavsky (a Czech philosopher and martyr) said that the terrible threat against life is not death, nor pain, nor any variation on the disasters that we so obsessively try to protect ourselves against with our social systems and personal stratagems. The terrible threat is that we might die earlier than we really do die, before death has become a natural necessity. The real horror lies in just such a premature death, a death after which we go on living for many years....... (17)



I don't want to die early. I don't want the easy. I have said it before and I will say it again and hope that the only one who can prevent the mediocre from taking root is listening and hears my prayers. For I want to be fully human. I don't want to die before I'm dead. I want fullness in all its pain.

We are meant to have life and to have it abundantly. That means that whatever it brings, whether floods or deserts, valleys or mountaintops and everything else in between, we can live it in abundance. Abundance. Without reserve. Without holding back. Letting go and becoming a humble, hearty lover of God in this messy, marvelous world of the redeemed.




Chunks of this were taken from Run with Horses by Peterson, with some of my comments thrown in.